Monday Musings: The Day I Started Blogging: What Was I Thinking?

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You know, blogging five years ago was entirely different than it is today. Today, there are far more bloggers in this space, blogging is my livelihood, I am an LLC, I have grown by leaps and bounds, and most importantly: I NEVER SAW myself doing what I am doing now. So I reflect with you today on the Day I Started Blogging!

What was I thinking?

Haha. I had a different plan that I thought my blog would take me… I wanted to open up a physical boutique, so I eagerly started an online store that required more than just I could dedicate to it. I had done all the research and thought it would be a fabulous idea to start my business online- I thought I was She-Ra! The blog was a space for me to gather and provide resources and it was growing… BUT. I had no team, no interns, and my blog was taking off.

So what was I to do? Quietly I closed my online doors and refocused my energies into my blog. I had no idea where this would go, but I had an inkling that there was something here… something that I could build, grow, nurture, and develop! But I had NO clue what I was in for.




What Was I thinking?

How was this thing going to work for me? How was I to pay rent? Buy Groceries? Utilities? Bills? This transition from losing my job into entrepreneurship was a rocky one. A mind shift, an ambition, vulnerability, a risk, multiple prayers, and convincing those close to me that I am not crazy or delusional.

Carefully I crafted my strategy or plan-  I knew WHAT I was going to do, the tone, the content, the positioning, but I did not always know the HOW, that one can easily google today.  Monetization? I hadn’t the clue nor did I understand how google adsense was going to make it. I knew enough from business and marketing to know that there was something here, but how did I do this and stay authentic to self and my readers?

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I wasn’t an outfit blogger, not a magazine, and at that time, lifestyle blogging was still being defined or recognized- just not by many… I randomly shared my personal style, but nothing like I do now… plus at 27, I was going through an interesting point in my life, so I noticed my laid back boho loves had an interesting reflection of my life at that time… in Oakland. Ahhh, gotta love those personal transitions.

What Was I Thinking?



I am still on a path. Was it what I thought five years ago? HELL NO. It is better. Looking back, I have become such a well-rounded woman who never knew her own strength, until now. I take crazy risks, play around with my personal boundaries, and I still dream…

I still believe in my original dream: to own a physical boutique, curating the items I so glowingly talk about here on my blog. My path was just different from what I was thinking and had planned. Interestingly enough, as a Virgo, we like to plan things and one of the hardest lessons I had to learn was to let go…


So, there you have it. What I was thinking and what I think now in respect to the Day I Started Blogging.

What about you? What did you start and in retrospect you think to yourself, what was I thinking?

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Comments (05)

  1. I can totally relate 100%. I’m glad you are on a personal journey to live the life you so desire. I too launched an online store with hopes to open a brick and mortar location. I’ve only been blogging for 2 months but these two months have been quite the ride. The good thing is….I’m behind the steering wheel. I’m just gonna keep driving until I find my way. I love your passion, confidence and spirit. Peace & Blessings…..Natasha B.

  2. Ha, I had no clue what I was doing when I started blogging 4 years ago! It started as way to get back into my writing and that was it. It was fun, super fun but as the opportunities kept coming I was slowly seeing the potential for launching the career I really wanted in writing – just didn’t know how. Now I realize it was prepping me for the freestyle writer/social media life I’m living now, taking the leap earlier this year.

    Loved reading your blogging reflections!

  3. Love this! Haha..I still sometimes ask myself “what was I thinking?”. I started on day on a whim…I thought “hmm, I should start a blog” so I did. I was petrified and had no idea what I was getting myself into! I mainly did it as a personal challenge to get out of my comfort zone. It has truly been a journey but I’m happy I did it 🙂

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